the answer referred only to my life, while I had referred it to

life in general. I asked myself what my life is, and got the

reply: An evil and an absurdity. and really my life -- a life of

indulgence of desires -- was senseless and evil, and therefore the

reply, "Life is evil and an absurdity", referred only to my life,

but not to human life in general. I understood the truth which I

afterwards found in the Gospels, "that men loved darkness rather

than the light, for their works were evil. For everyone that doeth