the fact that these people's lives were like my own, with only this

difference -- that such a life did not correspond to the principles

they expounded in their teachings. I clearly felt that they

deceived themselves and that they, like myself found no other

meaning in life than to live while life lasts, taking all one's

hands can seize. I saw this because if they had had a meaning

which destroyed the fear of loss, suffering, and death, they would

not have feared these things. But they, these believers of our