In was then so necessary for me to believe in order to live

that I unconsciously concealed from myself the contradictions and

obscurities of theology. but this reading of meanings into the

rites had its limits. If the chief words in the prayer for the

Emperor became more and more clear to me, if I found some

explanation for the words "and remembering our Sovereign Most-Holy

Mother of God and all the Saints, ourselves and one another, we

give our whole life to Christ our God", if I explained to myself